You pridefully and openly stated to your friends that a girl you can control is what you find attractive.

But i’m not shocked. I already knew that you sought out people who were vulnerable so you could continue to break them down and make them feel worthless. Even while everyone insisted the stories about you didn’t sound like you, when people didn’t believe me, when people brushed off my claims about you because they didn’t seem that serious since it’s not as if you left physical wounds. I knew I was not in the wrong even as people decided to forgive you for your misdeeds.

I am disgusted with myself though for allowing you to take advantage of me TWICE when I was vulnerable. I’m disgusted I let myself think you ever cared about me for those two miserable years of my life when we were in and out of a relationship with one another. I’m disgusted that I allowed you to manipulate me in the most twisted and complex ways that I am still uncovering and healing from three years later. I’m disgusted that I still sometimes cry when I explain my situation with you to the new people that enter my life.

But i’m proud of myself because you will never even have the opportunity to have that control over me again. I’ll continue to block you from communicating with me, I won’t show up to the places I know you go and if I should run into you i’ll ignore your very existence. I don’t need you in my life like you need me in yours because i’ve always been strong even if it didn’t always show itself.

louises-belcher:

I may seem like an angry person on the surface, but deep inside, I’m actually angrier.

(via burgertv)

loneozner:

me: *waits patiently in a line in a busy establishment with limited employees who can only work so fast

every 40+ person in the vicinity: OHHHHHHH MY GOD THIS IS RI-DIC-U-LOUS why is the space time continuum not being broken to IMMEDIATELY ACCOMODATE me, The Most Important Person In The World,

(via tinysinner)

Reasons why my mental illness is fricken killing me lol

1. I’ve been so stressed out and sad as fuck so I haven’t slept properly in like a week and a half and sleep for like 13 hours every night on the weekends and still feel tired after doing so.
2. My body is not wanting to process these very volatile emotions right now so I go from feeling restless to feeling sick to feeling like I want to sob uncontrollably and end up just being antisocial and acting like nothing is wrong.
3. I’ve been having a horrible creative block the past couple days which is adding to my stress and making me feel embarrassed and inadequate about my graphic design work. This is especially affecting me because I’m graduating this year and feel like this will be reflective in my portfolio overall as I proceed to try and get a job.
4. My one pet mouse died a month ago. I know this doesn’t sound like a big deal but watching her get thin, frail, sick, and otherwise completely unherself and then finding her dead in the morning before class has really taken a toll on me. I also fear my other mouse is now beginning to follow the same path which will be all the worse for me since her and I have bonded quite a bit since my other mouse’s death.
5. I feel like I have no one to turn to and feel alienated from everyone around me which is why i’m making this stupid fucking post at 3am on a site I don’t even really go on anymore. I talk to one person about my problems and barely go into depth about one thing that’s bothering me let alone everything that’s bothering me because I feel like a downer and pitiful talking about it.